Plus Sized Women
I’m not the voice of all plus sized women, but I am pretty sure many of us have similar feelings on many different topics when it comes to things like turnstiles, clothing store fitting rooms and other things of this nature.
One thing that everybody has different inside of them is their own personal journey with their weight, attempts at weight loss and body changes. We all react to things that have grown inside of us as well as our external bodies changing.
I’m in the process of losing some weight, and while I’ll still be in this plus size range for quite awhile - I’m seeing a small change in my body. It got me to thinking - will I always see myself as a plus sized woman, even if I change sizes enough to shop in “regular” clothing sections of stores?
What will my mind do? How many thinner women still have plus sized mentalities if they were once heavy?
I have been a plus sized woman for about 20 years now. It’s who I am, who I became, and it’s molded much of my life. I have built in mindsets on many things, because of what I’ve experienced as a plus-sized girl.
What happens when my jean size is no longer that of a plus sized woman? Will my mind understand that my body has changed it’s shape - or will I always see myself as a plus sized girl? What will change more - my attitude, my body, or my strength to understand that I am ever evolving?
I’m proud of my accomplishment of losing 24 pounds so far, but even with that drop in the bucket, I’m far from reaching normal (as the fashion industry sees it) sizing. In plus sizes, women have to lose a good 20 pounds to drop a size, where as in regular sizing you drop a size with about a 10 pound loss. I don’t know where I’ll end up on the size range in the future, but with over 20 years of being an overweight person, I can’t expect my mind to change overnight either.
It is fascinating to watch my body change in bits and pieces - and I hope I come to accept and understand I am still me - whether I have a smaller or larger body. While my insides heal and continue to be nourished, loving myself is always the best thing I can do - regardless of my size.
