I’ve been going through my clothes lately – sorting things. I buy new clothes and I know I should get rid of some of my older stuff….my size has changed, and I’m donating my larger sizes. As I’m buying new clothes, I am tending to go towards “nicer” shirts, a bit dressier – maybe more blouse like than my traditional jersey material shirts.
Am I trying to dress nicer, or am I trying to be perceived as dressing nicer? I feel nice when I take care of myself, but it started me thinking – who am I really dressing for? When I look in the mirror – am I happier seeing myself in one style of clothing over another?
Do I want my husband to notice? My friends, my family?
I’ve always claimed I dressed for comfort, but many times I bought clothes to hide my expanding figure. Now as I’m getting smaller, do I like the dressier materials? Do I prefer to be seen as “taking better care” of myself? The funny thing is that while I do like those clothes time to time, it’s truly those comfortable clothes I go back to time and time again…
When I run to Target and it’s just me – I reach for comfort. I reach for the shirt that feels the best on my body. It’s not about “how I look”….but when I go to lunch with the girls, I put extra thought in and think – “Maybe I should wear this instead”….because maybe I want to be perceived as someone who dresses a different way.
I really tossed this around in my mind this weekend, and decided that since I’m in my 40′s, I’m going to stop dressing for others, and dress for me. Colors I love, styles I love, materials I love – and comfort, which I love. It’s who I am….I do like sweatshirts and soft t-shirts – and I guess I’m just not going to “outgrow” that.
….so here I’ll be in all my glory, sweatshirt, sneakers, natural make-up — and just being me.
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