I was in search of some shoes today. Let me start off by telling you why…I generally use my Crocs (flip-flops) in the summer for darn near everything. I love them because no matter how much my feet swell, I’m comfortable. Last night, we went out for the night, and I needed some dressier shoes, because I wasn’t familiar with the venue we were going to. I didn’t want to just try to squeeze by with flip-flops of course, and my black shoes I used to rely on weren’t fitting so well anymore.
I went into a panic last night, about to walk out the door and not a clue what shoes to wear. I finally dug out an old pair of sandals that were open toe and had white leather. They were fine and passed for the evening.
I realized, I no longer had a pair of dress shoes that I could comfortably wear….
WELL….8 shoe stores later, I finally came upon a pair of shoes. 5 out of the 8 stores were pretty well useless and maybe had 1 or 2 wide sizes total in the store…and it was finally Payless that came through for me.
I hit 2 separate Kohls, I hit Rockport, I hit Target, I hit a couple shoe stores in the mall, and I even tried a Walmart. While some hide wide sizes – they weren’t a good fit for me. I swell more on the top of my feet that at the sides, so if it’s too snug on top, it doesn’t work.
Talk about a depressing experience. When I go through this, I just want to curl up in a ball on the floor and cry — the entire time I’m going from store to store, it’s forcing me to focus on the things I don’t like about myself….and that’s hard.
It’s easy enough to go about my day to day life and ignore some of those things, but in this time and experience, the entire day forces me to look at my situation and see how absolutely disgusted and frustrated I am that I’ve let myself be at the point that it’s such a struggle to find comfortable shoes.
I want to say I wear my weight with pride. Some days — I’m totally okay – other days, not so much. Today was one of those days.
I don’t only need WIDE shoes, I need PLUS SIZE SHOES!
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